Welcome to another chapter in the life of me! I am just so thankful right now for God placing people in my life. I am struck how the moment my life seems jam packed God gives me strength and the ability to give of myself in more ways as needs arise.
Today Fiona is one third of a year old. Only three months ago it felt like it would be forever before I was back on my feet again. My days were consumed with making sure the baby and I survived those crazy first weeks. Yet here I am - back to work full time, the occasional rehearsal, figuring out how to knit; today we even had friends over and I cooked lupper!
You know what, I am truly blessed lately. I am grateful for every person who is a part of my life. Many of you are going through crazy times and hard times and sad times and it's okay... But don't forget there are people like me who want and love to be part of your life. That I by God's grace may be shown how to bless you and be a support for you as you all have blessed me in so many different ways. And also that people like me are human too, don't hold my vulnerability and my imperfection against me - I open myself to you because I want you to realize you are not alone and I am willing to risk being hurt if it helps me try to show you that I love you. You never know how God will work but He does care and he does have a future for you.
Right now I am missing my nine brothers and sisters (and their wonderful partners and children) and pray that someday we will all come together again. I wish... they each could all read this and know how much every one of them means to me now. That I would do anything for them. How much I love them. And also I ask forgiveness - for those times I wronged you, whether it was teasing, or simply being selfish and blind... It is the people closest who know the best that I am far from perfect and in need of forgiveness. So here I am, tired with a sleeping little girl in my arms but thankful and a bit humbled. Time to call it a day.
