Seasons

Only a few weeks earlier I was doing all the things I wanted and needed to do. Working fulltime, nursing a baby, mothering three young children, teaching my stepdaughter how to drive, sharing the cooking, childcare and laundry duties. On top of that, I am active in church, I play trombone in a few groups, and I enjoy participating in industry association meetings. Not to mention my husband is a fulltime college student. All of the above I love to do. I'm not trying to prove anything, I have just had many opportunities to get involved in a wide variety of activities. And under normal circumstances, I am able to manage them all at once, and still get about 8 hours of sleep a night.

Then the tables turned. I caught a bug that was going around and got really sick and really weak. I got better, but not completely. When I tried to go back to work, I was weak and physically drained, leaving me without the strength to effectively deal with the more demanding aspects of my job while physically compromised.

As I write this, I have a renewed awe of people who have found balance in their life by simply saying "Not right now." I have a strong sense of loyalty and commitment, so I really do want to do it all. It is so humbling to find myself in a situation where even though I can walk and talk and look okay, I am still not there yet.

In a previous post I talked about how it feels to be completely helpless. This is really part two of that story. Because there is a season for everything, and recovery can be a long process.

Until next time: For some of you, I hope you are savoring your seasons of strength, peace and abundance while providing others hope and help to get them through the seasons of weakness, storms and need. For the rest of you, I feel greatly for your seasons of weakness, storms and need and hope you are able to find the hope and help to get you to a place of strength, peace and abundance.